On the Very Edge of the Border

You know how so many people today are "on the fence" about political issues or whether they want to go see Valkarie or Milk at the theater... well I'm now officially on the very edge of the border between being 'overweight' and 'obese'. Technically I now fall into the obese category by 6/10ths of a pound. I am not sharing this because I'm proud of it by any means... I'm sharing it because I want to vow publicly that I will lose the 34 pounds I need to drop to return back to the 'healthy' BMI region.

They say that an unwritten goal is an unachieved goal. In an effort to be open and honest with myself about what is going on emotionally (and now physically), I guess anyone reading this gets to know more about me also... perhaps way more than they would ever want to know. I'm also guessing that being happy and confident in my physical appearence will lead to a more heathy emotional state. My initial goal is to drop the 34 pounds, go right through the overweight region and regain admittance into the healthy region, but my secondary goal is to lose an extra 14 pounds for a total loss of 48 pounds. This will put me at the weight I was when I started college here 4.5 years ago. I hope that it will take me less time to lose the weight than it did to put the weight on. The fact that I even have that much weight to drop is scary, but the reality of it proves that I have been unfaithful to myself. I admitted earlier this month that I have not been truly loved by me... which offers up a TON of explanation as to why I haven't been able to find a relationship. [I now hear in the back of my head, "You have to love yourself before anyone else can love you."] So I now vow to love myself... ha! How's that for a new year's resolution?

Anyway, getting back on topic, the next step in goal setting is to have timelines to achieve these goals. Logically, let's say I can realistically lose 2 pounds per week... that means that I can lose the 34 pounds in 17 weeks. This puts me at achieving this goal by 5/8/09, but since graduation is the very next week, I will set the date then.

Goal #1: "I will lose 34 pounds by May 15th, 2009, the day of my graduation from CSU with a Master's degree."

Goal #2: "From May 15th, 2009 to July 4th, 2009 I will lose another 14 pounds and be at my goal weight for the year. I will maintain this weight into 2010 where I can re-evaluate what goals I want physically and emotionally at that time."

Wow... I like this setting goals with timelines deal... you may see more of this in the future. Do I need to make a vision board now? lol... I saw one of the girls on The Bachelor had one!

PS Sorry if the picture offends anyone... but you need to know where you've been, and where you're at, to know where you're going.